Shayne Ward – I Cry

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try
Not to wonder why

I wish I could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl)
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling
I once knew

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry
Cause you're not here with me
I cry
Cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

Torchlight

 You might wonder why i post torchlight. It is not a normal torch light we use, it is a game like Diablo type. The game is just launched on 27.10.2009. I found it is nice, it graphic is nice too. Normal pc and laptop can support this game as long as you can play dota. See, this site.

Download:
Thunder link
BT link

Exam

Oh no, the day after tomorrow start my final year 1st semester exam, I still relax sitting here with my laptop. No mood arrgh, really don’t like to study. But i know i wont fail my paper because my carry mark is quite high, heehee. How to get A’s? study lor, i know but really no mood arrgh. Haiz, getting nervous now. Don't care, play dota first.HeeHee...

Hike Mountion

Hmm, i really like to hike mountain. Still remember, last time i follow a hike team, ODA (Outdoor Discovery Adventure) to G.Yong Belar and G.Batu Puteh. Quite tried, but i feel happy and satisfy. For me, hiking is quite tough. Its need outstanding stamina to carry things and walk or climb for few day. And also its need a strong mind set otherwise can go into but cannot come out from the mountain.

Why i like hike mountain? I like to close to nature, set my mind free from disturbance things and also train my stamina. "Dun Give Up", i keep remind me when i start to hike. I cant lose to myself, i cant stop here, i want reach to the peak of the mountain and come out safely.

However, I really cant join the hiking trip quite often because the trip is costly. Each trip fees is around RM 2++.00. Now i am still a student and havent earn money yet. Hope I can join ODA again after i graduate from UNIMAS and start to work.

ODA, don't forget me. I will join you back, wait me...

Who want join ODA for mountain hiking? Refer this blog, they are great.....

~~Lost~~

Lost, I had lost for five months. I lost my way, my future and also my thinking. Everyday keeping remind me myself - what should i do for today, tomorrow and future. I don't know. Really don't know.
Just 10 months ago, I went to Penang to have my Uni industry training at Intel. I feel happy and enjoy my life at there. Although everyday was busy with the work in Intel, I managed to have my time to travel around with my new friend. We went to Gua Tempurung (Ipoh), Cameron Highland, Hatyat (Thailand), Taman negara Penang, fruit farm penang, play paint ball and others. Not only that, I also joined the hike team to hike G7 (7 highest mountain in Malaysia) - G.Yong belar, G.batu putih. I feel my life was wonderful.
Back to now, everything change. I become lazy, no ambition, low energy and down. Why? May be the people i met here. The people here are selfish, unctuously, and not caring. I don't like this place. Just stand for another 6 months, i will set free from this place.

Lonely

I have thought that i have a lot of friend surrounded me but i am wrong. When i am down, no one is noticing me.  I look tough, but my heart is as soft as a piece of paper, easily tear off. I look happy always, but my heart is bleeding. I look tire, not that i am hardworking to study or play game, that is because i am losing my way. I talk too much, not that i am excited to show-off. I look fake because no one is understand me. I hate to answer the call and reply the message. No greeting and no care, just asking for something.

Sometime my friend like to complain to me about their feeling and I willing to listen to them and keep the secret. Then, who will keep my secret? My brain memory is full with sadness. If there is a “delete” button, i will shred and permanent delete the sadness.

My closely friend, do you notice my existence?

Everything Changed

Yesterday, I have a chance to chit chat together with my friend just in front of theater of UNIMAS. Still fresh in my memory; just 1 year before, 3 friend of mine and I sit in front of the theater, we talk and share our private secret and love story to each other. But now, everyone had change, they just keep secret in their mind; no really want to share their feeling. It around 10.00pm, we arrived at the theater there. We lay down on the floor and began to chit chat just like the pillow talk. However, we just talk nonsense; talk about the god. I feel like disgusting to share my opinion and feeling to them. Just now, I ask them a question; who is much different than before (one year)? I have shared my thinking to them. But I am quite disappointed, not even one of them answers my question and just give me a reason that they don’t want hurt other feeling. May be they willing not hurt someone else, but we are friends. We need other “so called” friend to give us opinion or criticize to improve ourselves. May be I am wrong, you are not treated us as friend. Finally, I found that everyone has changed. I am lonely.